October 21, 2011

One Month

It's been a month since daddy went home.
It still seems surreal in many ways.
I have good days 
and
I have bad days.

I miss talking to him on the phone.
He would always tell me about 
the weather
and
what he was cooking
or 
had cooked
and
what their upcoming plans were.

He would often
talk to me about Joey too.
He would mention what 
a pain Joey could be
because he always wanted
to be in dad's lap.
Guess what?
Joey CAN be a pain
because he always wants
to be in your lap.
ALL. THE. TIME.

Joey's doing well though.
His latest trick?
Destroying Molly's tennis balls.
I found this when I woke up one morning
It's ok cause Molly is eating his bones.
Sibling rivalry, right?

Mom's coming out this week for a visit.
This trip has been in the works for weeks.
I'm looking forward to it 
and am so glad that it has been planned.

We don't have too much planned.
Just a conference in Seattle
and hanging out here.
She's finally going to get 
to see our house!
She's excited for that.
I am too, 
to tell you the truth.

I know today is going to be hard for her too.
Every day that goes by
makes it that much more real
that he's not here.
That he's not coming back.
And we know it.

It just sinks
deeper
and 
deeper
in. 

We miss you dad.
But we're ok.
Just ok...
for now.

10 comments:

  1. One month, one mile stone passed with lots of tears and laughter. Like Poekitten I have days when my pity party goes on and on and days when I can smile and remember. Then there are those days of cleaning the litter boxes and wondering how he did it for so many years, I hate it, but love the kittes. Hard day today but lots of memories of all the fun things we got to do this last year, riding Segways, kayaking, going to the movies, doing a cooking class in ME, miss my best friend, but love that he's getting to know all that he can from the Master. Love you

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  2. I didn't think I'd last a day without my mother. Then I made it a week, a month and a year. It's been two years now and I'm still waiting for it to get easier.

    ((hugs)) and prayers going your way today.

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  3. What a beautiful post. Sorry for your loss and pain.
    Stopped over from FTLOB. Have a nice weekend :)

    TexaGermaFinlaNadian

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  4. Thanks for the comment on Ladyhub! I like your blog :) New follower

    xoxoAnge

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  5. Oh my! I just stopped by from the Weekend Wander blog hop and saw your post. Now I have tears running down my face! What a beautiful post. I can't imagine the pain you've been through & you'll be in my prayers!

    Bye,
    Lisa
    Life Full of Laughter

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  6. The few, the proud, the wifeOctober 21, 2011 at 4:40 PM

    beautiful post!

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  7. Lots of hugs. I'm so glad you're able to see your mom soon.

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  8. I know how you feel. My dad has been gone since 2004 and mom since 1988. It is an awful feeling having no parents. Stopping by from the blog hop (although late) and following you thru GFC and Facebook. I would love a follow back when you get the chance. Thanks so much for your help and have a great week!

    Mary@http://www.mmbearcupoftea.com

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  9. Just reading lots of your posts now. Love you girl. Cannot imagine missing someone this close... Wishing you many hugs and the Father's love today and every time you think about your dad... Remember when I locked myself out of my apartment & went to your parents'? Your dad had made an amazing potpie with crispy crust - top crust only - in a rectangle pan. YUM. XOXO

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