If you missed part 1, you can read it here.
I was right. They only call if you fail. I failed. At that point it was all I could do to keep from crying. I managed to write down the phone number to the nutritionist so I could make an appointment. We also made an appointment for me to meet with a nurse next and was told that I need to pick up my supplies at the pharmacy before that meeting. At the end of the call The Man came home. I started balling the second I hung up that phone.
I hadn’t read much on Gestational Diabetes (GD) because I didn’t want to worry. So when I was told that I have it, the only two things I could remember was that it causes babies to be large and that women with GD often end up with c-section. This is what bothers me most. I don’t mind having to follow a special diet or exercise program. If giving up cake/ice cream/pasta for the next 80ish days is best for munchkin than I’ll do it! It’s the complications of GD that upset me.
I am upset by the fact that I might not be able to go past 40 weeks. The reason this upsets me is because I’ve been preparing for and planning to have a natural, unmedicated childbirth. So the idea of being induced and quite possibly ending up with a c-section is really upsetting. For the first 24 hours I couldn’t even think about having GD without crying. Forget talking about it. I’ve been in a fog because I was not expecting this. Even though I don’t want to be induced or a c-section, if they are necessary for the health of munchkin than I will. Her health, and mine, are most important.
I’m feeling better after talking with @NavySweetie and Steph. I have an appointment with a nutritionist on Wednesday. Later that day I’ll be meeting with a nurse to go over monitoring my blood and learn more about GD.
I’m learning once again to leave this in God’s hands. I realize that I need to let go of what I want and go with what God wants. None of this surprised him and he knew it was coming. Sometimes I hold on to things I want too tightly. I need to learn to let go and let God work. Even if it doesn’t seem like it to me, his way is better than mine. Always.
Anyone have advice for living with GD? Tips, tricks, things that worked for you? Favorite recipes would be great too!
