Munchkin turning one and she’s still breastfeeding. This means I’ve reached my initial goal of breastfeeding for 1 year! I’m so thankful that we’ve made it this far. It was a little rocky in the beginning and I’m glad I didn’t give up when I wanted too.
In fact, I was a little stubborn about it. In my mind, I had failed by having a c-section. I know, I know, I didn’t but it wasn’t what I wanted and I worked really hard to avoid it. I allowed that c-section to make me feel like less of a mom and less of a woman. I vividly remember while we were still in the hospital and Munchkin had lost 14% of her birth weight. They started her on formula so fast that my head spun. All I could do was sob. I must have sobbed for at least an hour feeling like a failure, certain I was going to be a terrible mother. I was still crying while The Man feed Munchkin formula using a plunger tube thingie and I was hooked up to a double breast pump feeling like a cow. That was one of my lowest points as a mom.
After that I was not willing to fail at breastfeeding so it became my personal focus. I was going to do whatever I had to do to continue breastfeeding Munchkin. I know that some women do try everything and are not able to continue. I’m so, so thankful that I was able to. I’m not sure I would have made it if I had had to go back to work and had to pump. I hate pumping and I am amazed and inspired by the mamas that work and pump. I’m so thankful that I have been able to stay at home with Munchkin. Being able to be a stay at home mom helped tremendously in reaching my goal. The Man has also been my biggest cheerleader and has supported me every step of the way. Every time I nurse in public The Man is ready to say something to anyone who says anything mean to me about nursing. It hasn’t happened yet (thankfully) but he’s ready in case it ever does!
Now that we’re at a year, I have no plans for weaning. The WHO states that breastfeeding for up two years and beyond is good for mom and babe so we’ll continue for as long as Munchkin wants. I can’t see either of us wanting to stop anytime soon but you never know. I think we’ll take it as it comes, though I think I’ll be ready in another year. I think two years will be enough for me. I’m really praying she’ll self wean by then!
*How you feed your baby is a personal and often controversial issue. I trust that you did your research and made the decision that was best for you, your baby and your family. If you breastfeed, you rock mama. If you pump(ed), you rock mama. If you formula feed, you rock mama. If you do any combination of the above, you’re doing a great job mama. Keep it up!
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