Putting Munchkin to bed tonight was more painful that usual. She didn’t nap today. She fell asleep while 
You would have thought I was feeding her to wolves. She sobbed and screamed. I was laying right next to her as she cried for mama. If she could have opened up my chest and crawled in she would have. It felt like an eternity but in reality it was about twenty minutes. Somewhere in those twenty minutes an ungracious though ran through my head. I wondered if The Man and I are crazy because we want another child. We want another crying, screaming, clingy little person. I’m not sure I can handle more than one of these acting like this at a time. I’ve seen enough tweets from friends to know how crazy it can make you when you have two (or more) crying, screaming, clinging kids at once. It is entirely plausible that I’m crazy (I did marry a man who worked in a metal tube that submerged on purpose and slept next to a missile.)
Finally she quieted down. Then she fell asleep. Her cheeks were wet, her breathing even and she looked so sweet, so innocent in her sleep. With all the crying and screaming come cuddles and love. In the past eighteen months I’ve known more joy and love than I thought possible. Of course we want another bundle of crazy love. The Man and I agree that our family does not feel complete. 
It seems crazy to think that I want my life to be turned upside down. I do though. I want the crying, the screaming, the clinging, the joy and the love. The former will last for a short time but the latter? It will last a lifetime.
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I catch myself wanting another baby and then I freak myself out, wondering how I'll handle it with two kids. It's those crazy times that make me nervous...and that newborn phase, of course! (That's an adorable picture, by the way!)
ReplyDeleteI am past the point of having my own babies but I am good with that. I am perfectly content to borrow a great niece or nephew to squash the ovary screams. But I can remember being like that and having a total of 3 all boys.
ReplyDeleteMy husband and in keep wondering if a third baby would be nice but then one of the kids spills an entire box of Cheerios and then we just don't know what to do. Lol
ReplyDeleteWhen Munchkin was first born, I would stress myself out wondering the same thing. I had to make myself stop thinking about it. Now with Munchkin being older, I know it would be hard but I think I can do it. Thankfully my mom will be here to help!
ReplyDeleteThank you:)
ReplyDeleteI agree...two at once to start with would have been nice:)
:) Three boys....they can be a handful!
ReplyDeleteHehe. That's when it's nice to have dogs...they'll eat those cheerios up before you have a chance to sweep them up!
ReplyDeleteI got pregnant when my daughter was 11 months old and we weren't trying. It just happened. And I'm so glad it did, when it did, how it did. Their love for each other is so incredibly beautiful and like nothing I can ever have the words for. I love their relationship so much, and I think that's something we often forget about. I used to think "how will I handle this?!" without remembering that now there are two people who get to live this crazy insane chaotic life side by side, and I get to see that relationship grow every single day.
ReplyDeleteGreat post! We are still on the fence as to if we want another child. It would be great for Carter to have a sibling, but we just don't know if we want to. Maybe we just aren't ready now, and will be later? Thanks for linking up with Time for mom!
ReplyDeleteJenna, you wrote my exact thoughts! We actually started trying at 12 months and our girls happen to be 22 months apart and I couldn't be happier! Although they certainly have their moments we can already tell how special their relationship is!
ReplyDeleteThey definitely are a handful sometimes. My son typically calms down with nursing. I'm not sure if you still are nursing. Sounds like maybe not? I am actually am 13 weeks pregnant with number 2 and I plan on tandem nursing. I know I'm crazy, but I love being a mama :) Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us at Countdown in Style! Don't forget to stop by Friday to see if you are featured! xo
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree more, Julie. It's such a beautiful thing to witness.
ReplyDeleteI know it will work out:) I don't have siblings but I really want our kiddos to be close!
ReplyDeleteThanks! Having another child is a lot of commitment. Maybe you will be later:)
ReplyDeleteEven when they're a handful, kids are so worth it! I'm only nursing 1-2 times a day, mostly before nap or bedtime. I'm not ready to stop and I don't think Munchkin is either:)
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